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i am up at a reasonable hour and excited to volunteer my morning at the NM Organics Conference that is in town. it’s so nice that its being held in las cruces this year so that people who normally wouldn’t be able to travel up to santa fe or albuquerque, or people who cannot afford hotel stays and restaurants can attend and get the benefit of seeing all of this alterNative stuff, too. yeah, i said it, even though that term has been a sore spot in my life up until the present when i figured out a way to release my holds on things that used to take a miracle worker with a divining rod to locate the source and usually ended in a group exorcism to try to remove it from my body. yes, it was that difficult despite my penchant for overreaction. now i do it on my own, all the time, and it has lightened me and softened me and the great goddess knows that was needed. i wasn’t able to attend the conference yesterday, nor was i able to attend the MALCS steering committee meeting, because i was chained to my desk writing a Kellogg grant proposal that i don’t believe in. where does a grant writer who works for justice draw the line when told to secure money for something within her organization that makes her feel physically ill because it is inequitable? you can’t just tell the executive director that you’re not going to write it, nor can you just simply write it poorly so it won’t be reviewed, not when the boss is close friends with the people at the foundation… that dilemma made for a difficult day and a lot of complaining to my colleague who is very kind to sit and listen to me. i have moral dilemmas about writing grants. sheesh.
i did receive the grassroots exchange fund grant i wrote for the common counsel. that was a fun one. so far i’m all for all when it comes to getting the grant and that makes me feel pretty good about my work in the world. putting together food justice spaces from ideas to paper is really exciting, but then seeing them start to blossom into real possibilities and collective realities is just - what’s another word for titillating? the one that’s going to slay me is the Praxis projects Creating Healthy Communities Grant. if we get that one we have changed the face of youth spaces in the colonias forever.
gotta run to the conference. grace grabbed the exhibitors list out of my packet and wrote down the names of each of the exhibition tables on a list on her clipboard with columns to check off for ‘visited’ ‘liked’ and ‘didnt like’. she’s too funny. i’m still learning my way around the blog world, but i really like what my friend sherie does on hers with the categories and links and whatnots. how come i can’t do that? i’m going to investigate.
